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Warning: just a random post from a restless mind.

I just actually wanted to write but I have no idea what to write about. Is there anything significant to write about? any major happening? NONE. Maybe because I just want something off my chest right now and writing is the only outlet I knew of ever since.

So here I am typing and deleting and typing and deleting again.

And yes, I am in the office and I know I should be doing office stuff but my mind is not functioning well. I just hope no one from my office get to read this or else I will be expecting a memo at my desk tomorrow morning.

My mind and heart is restless because of my brother's big financial problem-which became the family's problem and now I think becomes my sole burden. Big big sigh here. And the fact that we have a deadline is what keeping me anxious and worried. We have exerted a LOT of effort to help the bereaved family but they wanted more (than we can afford to give) and it is very exhausting. Of course I can not and do not blame them. I think I'll do the same if I were in their shoes.

Plus I have not been feeling well since yesterday. Last night I can't hardly move around. I was weak and I was so tired. When I woke up this morning I feel a lot better but not yet well.

And the never ending thought of "am I in the right place? is this what I want? has been lingering in my mind again and again. I hope that thought leave me before I become one crazy lady :)

Last Sunday night, we slept over at the church and I said loudly how "kawawa" I am in front of my friends because in my group of friends in the church, it's only me who needs to go to work. And they all can sleep late Monday morning because they don't worry of going to office late. They do not work and yet they have money to spend. Di ba I'm kawawa? ako I need to work so we can buy the things we need and want sometimes. They replied in unison naman na I'm still blessed.

I still have one happy thought though right at this moment, we've been receiving a lot of inquires with our lampshades and I just hope this will eventually turn into something good. :)

Anyways, didn't I tell you this is Random? Sorry for the nonsense post.

stuck in the office.rain.flood

It's been raining the whole day and I'm stuck in the office. I just called my husband and he confirmed that streets are flooded already and that he can't come to pick me up so I'll just wait till the water subside (if the rain stops ). For the mean time I'm stuck here and will keep on doing some paper works.

During rainy days, flood in Metro Manila is inevitable. It happens every year and I do not know why we can't do something about it. Whole day or whole night rains means flooded streets and traffic and people stranded everywhere. I wish the people in the government can come up with the best solution for this in the coming year.

Oh well, I wish everyone will do their part. I know that clogged drainages are due to garbages being thrown in the streets (everywhere actually). I do not know if industrial pumps help in cleaning clogged drainage but I really really hope the country will get over this someday soon.

Father's Day

With all honesty...my heart is aching that for 5 years now I can't still greet my husband a "Happy Father's Day". How I wish I can post a status over those social networking site and greet him with my name and "Our son/daughter's" signature. But it's been 5 years and though I am still aching I know somehow I'm getting over it. Slowly.

But still...

I'm hoping..someday..maybe next year or next next year..

I'll be posting a father's day post for him. And I have no doubt that he'll be a very good father. I know in my heart he will be one of the best!

And even if he is not yet a dad, it doesn't mean he doesn't deserve a special day greetings and if only i could,I would give him a blackberry bold 9700, he will love that for sure but since I can not afford that I'll just give him a big big embrace with a kiss :)

Please keep on praying for us. Have a happy father's day everyone!

My version of Pork Binagoongan

I've been cooking! and we've been over eating :(
It was Sunday night after checking some fireplace mantel designs when I decided to try the Pork Binagoongan recipe I got from J-mies recipe blog. I just made some variations.

Here’s how I did it.
I boiled the pork for at least 10 minutes, then fried it until crisp brown.

Sauté the onion and garlic, add minced tomatoes

Add the bagoong (shrimp paste) and small amount of vinegar, simmer until the shrimp paste is well cooked.

I then added the pork and the sliced eggplants.

I added a spoon of brown sugar also and simmered until the eggplants are soft enough :)
And I am done!! This is best with rice of course.

 and my grade?

pasado siempre!

Travel Themed Wedding

I'm currently working with this theme for a wedding. It's for my Brother in law and a good friend so I am giving my best shot in helping them.

Oh wow..that made me thinks..I had quite a number of events this year..hmnn..probably I should consider doing this as full time job.

But anyways, I am trying to read and load up with creative ideas for this wedding.

So far, here's what we've come up (we means me and the bride to be)

VENUE - the Aerospace museum in Villamor Airbase
CAKE - I suggested a suitcase cake ( I just hope we can find one that is not expensive as this is another budget wedding)
INVITATION - The passport type with boarding pass (such a nice idea!) I saw a lot of these in Recto and it is very affordable.
TABLE CENTERPIECE - I am thinking of using different country flags for each table. I just do not know how to execute it, will it be with flowers? or with what?

That's all we have for now. If you have any suggestions or any sites I can visit, please let me know. Meanwhile, I'll finish the sensa reviews first and keep on browsing for that.

Have a good day everyone!

Summer is over. June and another change

It's June already and summer has gone officially and true enough to what I have said before..I never had a chance to see even the nearest beach in town but I am not loosing hope :) I will no matter what happen see and enjoy the beach even once before this year ends. That's a promise to my self and I should not break that!

So anyways, it's already June and middle of the year already. If certain things (opportunities that opened) are going to push trough beginning this month, we are expecting another big change in our lives. And I am hoping and praying it will be better than the past 5 months.

And I know, with that changes coming, we have to ready our selves and prepare. We need to fix some documents too. Our SSS id's are on top of the list. With the recent incident involving my brother, I also want to equip myself with knowledge to social security disability benefits and more so we won't be caught off guard again.

The big change and  adjustment will be for Rudolf and I pray he would adjust well.