an update..finally

as usual becoz of loads of works..di ko man lang masilip blog ko lalo na mag update..buti na lang nakasingit ako ngayon..dami na kasi namin activity sa church so wala me time talaga..ngayon in iwan ko si dolf gumagawa ng t-shirt..naawa nga ako dun..sobrang daming trabaho..we accepted kasi an offer to make shirts as give aways nung 2 company ng other boss ko..we grabbed na the opportunity to earn an extra for our wedding, yun nga lang sobrang hirap sa sched..di na yata natutulog si dolf..tapos kanina sa screen na ginagawa nya pumalpak pa..super worry nga daw sha kasi baka mainis na ko..we're supposed to submit na kasi the sample kanina..kaya lang di natapos..maybe tomorrow..pinipilit namin matapos hanggang sunday afternoon kasi monday to wednesday may retreat sila sa quezon..arrghh! pray na lang kami na matapos namin.

our coordinator,my friend j-mie is here na! so we sat and discussed some things already..thank you for the pasalubong and for the gifts sa kids sa maricaban..i so looved the wedding magazines she brought from the states..saw a gown design there na sobrang nagandhan ko..papakita na lang namin sa mananahi and we'll see if pwede i-modify na mame-maintain yung design.. may na prepare na rin sha program for the ceremony..we edited it na and hopefully ma finalized namin sa january.prescy gaved me a magazine too..doon ko naman nakita yung accessories na gusto ko..

one big accomplishemnt for us is dolf's birth certificate..were worried kasi dito before..akala ko medyo magkaka-problema dahil before nag try na sha kumuha pero wala sa NSO name nya..pero when he went to makati..(thanks sa w@wie na nag share nung info re: makati city hall requirememnts) pwede pala kumuha dun..ang bilis pa.

so that's it muna..have to go na..nasa internet cafe lang kasi ako..balikan ko muna si dolf...

on pamanhikan

yesterday was the day...

last saturday, i was really upset but God embraced me last sunday so umuwi ako sa province na masaya..nauna nako umuwi last sunday afternoon..

monday, just woke up early konting linis and i did the christmas tree..yepee! pasko na sa amin..
si tatay at si nanay ang nagluto ng ulam, adobong baboy, inihaw na tilapya at hito at of course ang aming famous na pinakbet! ( sana nabusog sila..)

actually, ok na kila nay na walang pamanhikan..i remember one of my sister got married without it..but of course ako kasi i would like to give respect to both of our parents that's why i wanted it. at first we were both nervous sa di ko malamang kadahilanan but it went ok naman..wala namang naging problema.

me and rudolf ended our day with praises and thanksgiving to God..nakita namin talaga ang pagkilos ng Lord dito..am so thankful sa lahat ng binigay nya..

am also thankful dun sa mga tao who gave us their time..
thank you kuya mar...kuya allan and kuya jun..
all are leaders in our church..
regalo po kayo ng Diyos sa amin!

although had to admit, i expected some people that i believe were close to us, to be there but for some reasons hindi nakasama..sumama ang loob ko but it's ok..ganun talaga..will just try to understand them.

on feeling sad

i wanted to write badly...no..i want to cry..that's exactly how i feel right now..
i am a bit hesitant of writing it here..pero hello!!! blog ko to..at i can write what i want to write..
i just feel so sad..
this has been my feelings since tuesday...mga rason? di ko na alam which is which...
i guess i'm tired..tired of being strong for everyone..or maybe feeling ko lang to.
i know naman na i am not that strong..pero bakit ganun? di ko maipakita sa kanila kung ano talaga ang nasa loob ko..kung ano naiisip ko..kung ano nararamdaman ko panungkol sa kanila..

sabi ni carmel..maybe God is stretching my faith...i guess so..
sana lang di sumama ng todo ang loob ko.

now..i am beginning to recognize the people that really cares for us..at konti man sila..i thank God for them.. and going through this stage..i am more thankful that i have Rudolf..i have his hand to hold..i have his shoulder to cry on..i have him to make me smile..

and I thank Him also for the kids at maricaban..therapy na rin sila sa akin..kahit matitigas ang mga ulo..kanina when we started singing.medyo nabawasan yung bigat ng loob ko..at nakuha nila talaga ang atensiyon ko.I just love looking at them singing praises to the Lord..at kung meron mang pinakamahalaga sa akin ngayon..yun eh yung mabilan sila lahat ng gifts this christmas and at least put a smile on thier cute faces..i don't know how we will be able to buy them all a gift for they are at least 60 kids.God will provide.FAITH

an officemate of mine had promised 20 toys for boys and girls..counts a lot.

bakit ganun? di ko pa rin maisulat yung gusto ko talaga isulat?

from cabanatuan

yeah..i am updating this blog of mine from cabanatuan..been here since wednesday..it was an emergency leave..my mom is sick and i have to go home..thank God she's fine now.She just needs close supervision to keep her blood sugar and blood pressure low. I never knew it could be as serious as this until i was able to talk to her doctor which happens to be my classmate wayback elementary. Her blood sugar was so high it could have caused her blindness and her blood pressure could have caused her a stroke..which i taught she had, kaya talaga namang ninerbyos ako at sumugod ako umuwi..i cried and i was so afraid of the thought that we're gonna lose her na..umiral na naman pag ka praning ko!

Praise God! I know she'll be fine..a lot of prayer had been said for her and God surely listens...

on wedding preps...i was able to visit "Sa lumang bahay" parang ocular na din..and discussed some things with belle-the owner who also manages the place..she's so accomodating..the place is good like what i've said before and finally my father agreed na..so hopefully after the pamanhikan on the 28th..mag full blast na kami sa preparations.

prescy called me last week- she will sponsor my gown talaga!.. ang bait ni Lord..and she said yes na rin as one of my secondary sponsors..kailangan na namin pumayat!

we were able to talk to Pastor Gani na rin, he'll officiate our wedding and has given us lots of encouraging words and tips..counselling with him will start soon na rin..so maybe we will be very busy on the next few months.

ano pa ba nagawa namin? hmnnn..we went to divisoria na rin pala...we scouted some materials for our invitations..maybe we could go back before the end of this month..super hirap na pumunta dun ngayon kasi dami na tao..

gotta go now..nakakalimutan ko may pasyente pala ko..hehe!
miss ko na mahal ko...:(

on butterfly cake

i love this!!! just thinking if i could still add some colors..like yellow..para spring colors..

on calla lily

this is what i want for my bouquet...medyo expensive sha compare to roses (according to some flowershops i've asked) but i think i can still scout for a not so expenxive one..

meeting with pastor boying

last night we went to pastor boying's house, one of our ninong to be and i know it's a good decision for us to get him as our ninong..daming insights and of course words na hindi lang sa kanya kundi alam namin na from the Lord talaga..He will be leaving nga lang soon for a short mission exposure sa Malaysia and when he gets back..start na kami ng counseling..that's gonna be on January and every wednesday schedule namin..dami nang nae-excite sa wedding namin..

ang dami pa rin naming gagawin but one at a time..

I'm having j-mie (a very dear friend of ours and our pastor's dughter) as our coordinator, nag confirm na sha kanina..she'll be coming home from the states on dec.6 and we'll gonna start working on details na.. excited na din sha! :)

ang hindi lang talga exciting ay yung pag alis ni jerly..confirm na kasi.may US Visa na sha..huhu! wala na talaga sha sa wedding.

anyways...gotta go na.will update again soon. (am listenig to "the first time i love forever" at parang gusto ko na umiyak..hehe! baka i'll use na this sa bridal march.)

our entourage

Our Entourage (partial pa lang)

Principal Sponsors:
Mar Sadogio Anne Benavidez
Jun Betco Tina Areola
Pastor Toni Bullo Stella Macalalad
C/M Florentino Joaquin Susan G. Dulo
Pastor Boying Mabilangan

We’re having at least 6 pairs siguro…dami actually but we cannot make them all our ninong/ninang…(sigh)

Best Man : Jeff Litong
Matron of Honor : Teresa M. Yamsuan
Groomsman: Ramon Abadiano
Bridesmaid : Michelle Veneracion (di ko pa nakausap)
Candle Sponsors : Lester Leoncio
Donna Mendoza
Veil Sponsors : Andrew Suarez
Carmel Tisado
Cord Sponsors : Byron Abaca
(Venus or Prescy or Fedorah) ---wala pa confirm

I’m quite sad because Jerlyn was supposed to be part of this pero paalis na kasi sha..

Ring Bearer : Ryan Christian U. Caculitan
Bible Bearer : Thomas Patrick S. Trajano
Coin Bearer : Rowell Renz U. Pagayunan
Jr. Groomsmen : Jerome Abadiano

change of date

notice the daisypath? now it says 6 months and 1 week before our wedding day...yeah..after spending a lot of time in prayer and some serious talks..we finally decided to move it on April..for us not to worry too much of so many things na rin..

initially..i'm quite confused ..I've always thought I'm gonna be a december bride..but God has his own plans..

right now..we're doing fine...we have a venue na rin although pencil book pa lang sha..at least di na sa bahay as my father is insisting..but I do hope everything will push through the way we wanted it..ciempre kami naman yung ikakasal di ba? and at the same time not hurting anyones feelings specially my dad.

haven't had the time to post din kasi am so busy..work and ministry and family...we went home last week to celebrate my moms birthday..medyo di masyado maganda kasi..as usual dami problema..but still i thank God for giving mom another year..and special din kasi it's very seldom na magkakasama sama kaming lahat..with all my siblings and thier kids.

so i'm still on to wedding preps..now i am thinking of giving "save the date" na di ko na inisip pa dati.

at isa pang natuwa ako..I'll have lot's of time to lose some weight pa..hehe! para naman daw mabuhat ako ni rudolf sa kasal namin..

anniversary???

August 18- our "4 months anniversary"-this kinda confuse me because we really do not know when to celebrate our anniversary...April 18 was the day we announced what we are having, we called it officially announcement..naks! and so we decided to celebrate our anniversary every 18th of the month..but the fact is we've been loving each other since last October, have had difficulties last december and so we went off as in di kami talaga nag-uusap..this was the time that we're both asking God if we really are God's best..and obviously kami nga-coz we're getting married soon..we didn't have the chance to go out since we both have things to do..thursady is his ministry day in Pasay and it's also the day where the singles meet in our church-which is my ministry naman so ayun...di kami nakalabas..but what made it special is that we endlessly greeted each other in between the fellowship...and i gave him a card which reads...

I promise to give you the best of my self
and to ask of you no more than you can give..

I promise to accept you the way you are
I fell in love with you for the qualities, abilities,and outlook on life that you have,
and I won't try to reshape you in a different image.

I promise to respect you as a person with your own interest, desires, needs,
and to realize that those are sometimes different but no less important than my own.

I promise to share with you my time, my close attention,
and to bring joy and strentgh and imagination to our relationship..

I promise to keep my self open to you...
to let you see through the window of my personal world...
and to my innermost fears and feelings, secrets and dreams.

I promise to grow along with you...to be willing to face chnge as we both change in order to keep our relationship alive and exciting.

I promise to love you in good times and bad, with all i have to give and all i feel inside...
In the only way I know...completely and forever.

In return.. I got lot's of I love you's and kisses!!! kilig!!

goodbye angie

last sunday we bid our final goodbye to a very dear friend..she's so young and so full of life and laughters..but God took her home already..left her 4 year old daughter and her husband..The moment I heard the news I was shocked..parang kailan lang..magkakasama kami..tumatawa..not knowing of what is ahead of us...until now..it's so hard for me to accept that she's gone..na hindi na namin sha makikita forever.

What strucked me and my friends is the cause of her death..."kidney failure"..just last year kasi(november) a friend of ours died of the same reason also,he's only 23 years old..7 kami na barkada...and sobrang naging close kami..na kahit we live on seperate houses but the same place..halos sa isang bahay na lang kami tumira at sa'ming pito, 2 na ang namatay with the same desease..I wonder..coincidence nga lang ba ito? so kaming mga naiwan (5 of us) are very conscious tuloy about our kidney...inom ng maraming water, inom ng buko juice...one of my friend nga decidecd to have an ultra sound na daw..just to make sure...paranoid! can't blame him,sabi nga nila mabuti na daw yung nag-iingat.

tomorrow is junel's 24th birthday..and on september 24, angies' 27th birthday..no more celebrations though..

bye angie and junel..we'll miss you both.

innocent bride?

never thought of this result..hehe! got this from edrei...

katuwa naman yan!

w@w posting

sa wakas! nagkalakass din ako ng loob i post itong blog ko sa w@w..after months of blogging and blog hopping..sobrang nakaka initmidate kasi daming nice blogs sa w@w eh...

nakita na rin ni rudolf ito..just last week..and am so happy kasi na - appreciate daw nya talaga..dapat lang no? hard work ko yata ito...as in wala naman kasi ako alam before sa html...tama si jacque-addicting pala ang blog..although di ako masyado nagpo-post but i nver failed to open and read helpful tips about blogging...trying to learn more pa rin.

lapit na december!!! parang kinakabahan na ko...kagabi we were talking..sabi ko kay dolf"papakasal na ba tlaga tayo sa decmber?"...sabi ba naman "ikaw? what do you think?"
well....last time i checked my heart, alam ko i'm getting married on December, unless God says no, not yet.

God has really blessed our relationship in so many ways...we're growing together in the Lord..although may mga palpak din kami and some bad times but God has used it to make us more closer to Him...

wedding preps....

haaay! talk about wedding preps...i think i'm so behind the preparation na...although I've done small things na..in fairness! I've list na of Prinicipal Sponsors, Secondary Sponsors and the whole ng entourage..kung may changes man siguro..konti na lang..finally rudolf is helping..kahit sa pag-iisip lang..Hehe!

before kasi..I'm thinking of postponing the date until everything is settled..pero I know God has given us the go signal to get married on December..

Carmel will do the invites-yes! thanks sis..
Jerlyn will sponsor the cake daw...di pako naka canvass..kais naman di pako nauwi sa'min..medyo mahirap talaga pag sa province ang kasal tapos dito ako nagpe-prepare..basta promise jerl...mura lang hahanapin ko..hehehe!
sana matuloy din si prescy na i-sponsor gown ko..as she promised before.. o di ba lahat blessings?

I can't thank the Lord enough for my friends...
and can't thank Him enough for giving me Rudolf...i love you my dear david!

learning a lot

..just want to post some of our pictures here..thanks to j-mie for emailing me this..

i'm learning a lot now bout this blog thing..kasi naman am spending lots of time here din..

first image uploaded

wohoo!!! at last..have my first image uploaded na...step by step..am doing fine here...
next project..how will i change the looks of my blog..

talk about the wedding...haven't done anything for the last few weeks now..i don't know..nawala na ba yung excitement? di naman siguro..it's just that I'm just going with the flow..or maybe it's because iniisip ko na hindi pa naman nagsasabi si dolf sa church so it's still premature to plan for the wedding..but if it's gonna be on december na nga..wow! I think I'm running out of time na..

a friend of ours is sponsoring the inviatation...:)

I'm going to that filipiniana theme na talaga..last sunday afternoon..we tried to look for that cord na nakita nung isang w@wie sa rustans..pero di namin nakita...:(

starting july..seryoso nato..i mean, will announce it na sa mga close friends namin..amd will have the ento list na..hope everything works out fine..

simple gown

here i am again

yeah..here i am again..been trying to make this blog more beautiful but to no avail..di ko tuloy mapakita sa iba..kainis!! but of course..di pa rin me susuko..i'll keep on trying!!

umuwi kami ni dolf sa knila last sunday..dapat uwi din kami balikan pero tinamad na kami..we went to see his father..finally na meet ko din tatay niya..he's very nice..kahit mahirap lang ang pamilya ni dolf di mababyaran ang kabutihan ng kalooban nila and the love for each other..we kinda treat his father na rin coz it's father's day..nagpaalam na si dolf na he's getting married..katuwa tatay niya wala man lang tanong-tanong..as in ok lang..:)

sa family ko at sa family ni dolf ok na...next is our church since he is a full time worker..he needs to ask permission from our senior pastor and from chief (tatay nila sa center) di ko pa lam kung kelan plano niya...am just waiting..don't wanna bug him..ayokong isipin niya na pine-pressure ko sha..

blog..blog..blog..

one week nako nagba-blog..di pa rin ako natututo..haay!!gusto na mag give up dito pero when i see beautiful blogs..gusto ko pa ring gumawa but I think have to spend more time..
we went to bridal fair last sunday..am so excited kasi this was our first bridal fair na pinuntahan..although parang medyo na bore si dolf..ewan ko ba dun bakit nainip..nagutom yata..hehe! dami ko nakuha numbers ng mga suppliers na pwede ko pagtanungan kahit sa province pa ang kasal ko..

dami ko na ideas for the wedding..sa dami tuloy I'm mixed up..gusto ko na yung filipiniana..actually may nakita nako murang pang souvenir..ganda pa.

My first post ever

just created this blog...still trying to get the hang of it. I named it God's gift because we (Rudolf and I) believed that we are God's gift to each other.We have been officialy engaged since April 18 and I'm pretty much excited of becoming his wife. Can't hardly wait to wake up each morning with him beside me..