on feeling sad

i wanted to write badly...no..i want to cry..that's exactly how i feel right now..
i am a bit hesitant of writing it here..pero hello!!! blog ko to..at i can write what i want to write..
i just feel so sad..
this has been my feelings since tuesday...mga rason? di ko na alam which is which...
i guess i'm tired..tired of being strong for everyone..or maybe feeling ko lang to.
i know naman na i am not that strong..pero bakit ganun? di ko maipakita sa kanila kung ano talaga ang nasa loob ko..kung ano naiisip ko..kung ano nararamdaman ko panungkol sa kanila..

sabi ni carmel..maybe God is stretching my faith...i guess so..
sana lang di sumama ng todo ang loob ko.

now..i am beginning to recognize the people that really cares for us..at konti man sila..i thank God for them.. and going through this stage..i am more thankful that i have Rudolf..i have his hand to hold..i have his shoulder to cry on..i have him to make me smile..

and I thank Him also for the kids at maricaban..therapy na rin sila sa akin..kahit matitigas ang mga ulo..kanina when we started singing.medyo nabawasan yung bigat ng loob ko..at nakuha nila talaga ang atensiyon ko.I just love looking at them singing praises to the Lord..at kung meron mang pinakamahalaga sa akin ngayon..yun eh yung mabilan sila lahat ng gifts this christmas and at least put a smile on thier cute faces..i don't know how we will be able to buy them all a gift for they are at least 60 kids.God will provide.FAITH

an officemate of mine had promised 20 toys for boys and girls..counts a lot.

bakit ganun? di ko pa rin maisulat yung gusto ko talaga isulat?