Random Thoughts

1. Hubs passed the ALS test last October, thus qualifying him to higher education this coming June. We're looking at some TESDA courses because it's free. He wants to learn something about computer, (which I think he's very good at even now) maybe he'll take up computer technician course. I actually suggested welding because I can see that he can use that skill someday in our going out of the country for the mission but i don't wanna make decision for him, he'll take what he thinks will be best for us. I will trust him for that. I don't know why he has no liking to anything industrial, he prefers photoshop rather than industrial hand wheels.


2. Still with hubs, since he is going to school this June, he'll be resigning as a full time staff/worker of our church which means he will no longer receive monthly allowance and us leaving the mission's house. Meaning double additional expenses on our part. And to date, we are still not debt free.

3. I worry a lot about these major major changes coming up in our life. And I know worrying doesn't do me any good. Worried and excited at the same time because we will finally be io our own.

4. I am still not pregnant and I think I am not making any progress. To be honest, I am beginning to lose hope of becoming a mom, of taking care of someone that really belong to us. And I am already redesigning my thoughts and vision of our married life with that. Like us traveling and doing work without a child in tow.

Choose our words

I’ve been staring at the monitor for almost an hour now and I can’t think of anything to write. I had a YM chat with a cousin just a while ago and know what it brought me? Sadness and guilt and pain and all…and come to think of it, we just had a short conversation. That ma me think how words can make or unmake our day. I was wondering had she chosen the right words to say, will I still feel like this? Or had I chose not to response anymore would I still be as hurt like this?

It’s odd because I know she was trying to encourage me and cheer me up but it did the other way around.

But thanks, I am reminded to carefully choose words because it might lift up or it can push a person deep down to the lowest level.

What a way to start the morning. But I will choose to not ruin my whole day. I will choose to still be happy and do things right.

And with that note, I am reminded of Leptitrex, in case you do not know, it is another weight loss product which claims to detoxify your body, eliminate acne, suppress appetite and give you a "euphoric high." Now that is something right? And I wish I could just take so many fat burner as I can too. I need to suppress my appetite..haha!

So there, see? I am feeling good now.

TGIF-Today God Is First

For some it’s Thank God it’s Friday but I love how my fellow blogger defined it. Today God Is First.

And isn’t it supposed to be TGIF everyday? Putting God first everyday does make a difference, I am a living testimony to that. Sometimes when I wake up too late and then rush on to my breakfast and completely forget about HIM, the day would turn out to be stressful and chaotic.

I am learning a habit again of spending even just a few minutes everyday with HIM every morning right before my day begins. And yes, it makes a difference.

Anyways, How would you spend your weekend? I’ll be visible this weekend in the blogoshpere because I owe a lot of my friends a blog visit and I will work on that franchise opportunity me and my cousin talk about sometime ago.

Well, I hope it’s not a busy weekend for me. I still need to rest.

Have a nice weekend everyone!

Too lazy

Have so many things to blog tonight and yet I am too lazy to do it, have to post pictures from the "Children of Hope" birthday celebration, from Nicole's manila zoo adventure and some thoughts that has been lingering in my mind.

I just don't wanna do it tonight. I'm sleeping early because I slept 4:30 last night, and no it's not because I blog and hop, I went to Bulacan to see Irene.

And I was tired , emotionally drained and physically tired. And hubby is not cheering me up in fact he's adding up to my whining right now, been asking him not play PS tonight and instead read or do quiet time or worship but to no avail.

I wish I could be somewhere else where I can be rejuvenated and strengthened. Time to go to la la la land.

I'm missing them

I’m missing my parents, had a chat with my cousin last Friday, she went home to province last weekend and had the chance to see my parents, and I missed them more now. I feel a bit guilty for not seeing them for almost 2 months now. That’s why in my last post, the four things meme, I write Nueva Ecija in the place where I’d rather be right now. I miss them so much. You see my parents are in their old age now, my father is 71 and my mother is turning 69 this October. I just don’t know why but they opted to stay in our house in the province, they can actually live with my two sisters who have their own place here in Metro Manila. I wish to see them next month or sooner. I want to spend more time with them while they are still strong. But of course I will still be there for them when it’s time for them to use incontinence supplies of products for old ones.

I pray they will still be able to see their grandchildren in me, oh my...... I don’t even want to entertain the thought that they won’t see me give birth anymore. I would like my child to feel the grandma and grandpa love that was bestowed to all of my nephews and nieces.

I wish I am pregnant now. Oh I wish I have a baby now. I wish I’m home now.

ARE YOU SO BUSY?

I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time to hold hands with R
I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time for my old parents
I don’t want to be so busy
That I won’t be able to witness some momentous events with my niece and nephews
I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time to chat with my siblings
I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time for friends
I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time to reflect on God’s grace
I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time to laugh
I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time to play
I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time to those who needs me
I don’t want to be so busy
That I have no more time to do what I love to do
I just don’t want to be so busy.

Are you busy? I hope you’re not my dear friends, take time to reflect, take time to call someone, take time to chat with your friends, take time to play and pray, take time to rest, take time to travel and visit places like Orlando golf courses if you can. Just take time.

I don’t know what driven me to write this, maybe because I am currently missing a friend and all she has to say was “she is busy”. Ugh. Like she has no time for unimportant talks. Ugh again. I wish I am not that busy. Well, I know sometimes I get too busy with work but I hope I don’t ignore a friend who needs me.