Realization

David :)

David  : The name David is a Biblical baby name,meaning of the name David is: Well-beloved, dear'.

Pleasure to have spent few hours with our dear David last Wednesday. David is the son of my  best friend  Tere (from my former work) and we waited for him for 11 years, he is now 2 years old and is very very handsome :) A source of joy not only to his parents but to the people around him as well.

Wish I could spend more time with him and his mom.

*Warning: this is not a happy post*

I do not want to type at first but I know letting this out will help me ease out a bit.

It's Father's day on Sunday. At first I don't wanna dwell on it but my facebook feed is now filled with lots and lots of greetings and quotes for Father's day.

2 years ago, I lost my earthly Father and though it is true that time heals all wounds, I still feel the pain of not having him anymore specially in times like this.

Apart from that, and this one hurts me most this day- the realization hits me again that my husband might never have that chance of receiving that special greetings from his very own child.

We have long accepted the fact that I am now too old to bear a child. Our chance got slimmer and slimmer  in each passing year. I know there are alternative ways and procedures but that also means huge money and we don't have that.

I remember a post for Father's day  I made years ago- I was full of hope that someday soon a son or a daughter will greet and make a card for my husband but......

So there, on Sunday, our church will bless all the Fathers and they will call them in front again, maybe there will be a special song for them along  with a tiny gift and each year they fail not in including my husband (same goes on Mother's day) in hope that he'll be a dad also someday soon. And in reality, I dreaded that moment  because they do not know how it hurts me deep inside, at first I gladly accepted that but  it's kinda different now.

Better to skip church on Sunday (that I also do during Mother's day)

Sorry for ranting. Just want to let this out. Thank you for reading.

Reunion with bestfriends

I had a very extra ordinary weekend, finally after so many years we were able to see each other again. We were office mates before and then new opportunities came and we  separated ways but we managed to remain good friends. In fact, not just good friends but very special friends, I have never shared to anyone any deepest secrets but only to these girls and we all do the same :)

Here we are, older, matured, and heavier but so much happier :)

Dinner at Lamarang,Cabanatuan City

 making funny faces :)

Parting time is as usual the hardest part but we made a promise to see each other again someday soon!

"I never feel lonely if I've got a book - they're like old friends. Even if you're not reading them over and over again, you know they are there. And they're part of your history. They sort of tell a story about your journey through life." - Emilia Fox

Fun time!

Every year these 2 lovely kids come home for a vacation, their parents are missionaries in Sabah, Malaysia where we had our one month mission trip last 2010. Because we've lived in their place for 1 month, I know how hard and lonely at times their lives can be. Since then, we make sure to at least treat them when they come home here in Manila.

We always go to Timezone at Cash and Carry and we let them play, but guess what? me and my husband get to enjoy it so much too!

Here we are last Monday :)

We ate after playing :) we let them choose and of course Jollibee won!

We'll see them next year and  we promise them another fun adventure :)

Have a blessed weekend everyone!

Happy Monday!

Starting the day right. It’s Monday, new day of the week and it is but right to start happy and positive

I need to do this or else I’ll be overwhelmed with work in the office and it would be easy to get depressed and tired which I don’t like at all.

Anyways, this week starts a new challenge in terms of work. I just hope and pray I will be able to deliver of what is expected of me.

My weekend was spent with the husband and my side of the family, this not so little girl anymore celebrated her 13^th birthday last Sunday and she had her first Starbucks coffee too. I just want her to experience it because that coffee is too expensive for us (we are not rich that’s why). She’s happy that at least she was able to try it.

Speaking of my family side, my Mom is here again in the city with us and just three days after her arrival, she is asking me again when I will bring her home in the province. She is really not comfortable here and much as we want to we can’t let her be alone in that old house of ours.  First, the house needs complete renovation, the roof is leaking, and some of the wood pillars and flooring upstairs are not safe anymore because of termites. I have long been praying and hoping that we’ll be able to do the renovation soon so Mom can see it, for sure she’ll be happy about it.

Anyways, searching for pest control brought me here, and because I am not in the US maybe those who read my blog from there can benefit, check this  Orlando critter control they specialized in nuisance animal removal . Cool no? here in my part of the world, you only hire pest control and that’s it, if it’s  wild animals I don’t know, in the province some people will just get it and make it their pet. Dead animal removal, pest animal damage repair, they can do it all.

Ok, going back, pest control is not an option for our old family house anymore. Renovation is the solution and MIRACLE because where will we get the money for that?

Maybe, if I work and work and work and work even more.  Hopefully, a blessing will come and my dream of renovating it for my Mother’s comfort will become a reality.

Well, this has been a long post. Thank you for at least getting this far.  Happy Monday everyone and enjoy the rest of the week!

Day Dreaming

of deep blue water
of waves splashing on my face
of sands on my feet

of shades..
of big fedoras..
of flip flops

of crabs and shrimps
of smoothies
of watermelons

of sunset
and sunrise

surrounded by the people I love most

*~*

Honestly, am quite sad (ok really sad) that summer will soon be over and I did not even have a summer get away. And I was thinking that summers have been like this for several years now, it dawned on me that I am regularly going on a beach not on summer time because my summer is full of church/ministry activities. Not that I think it is bad but hey sometimes you need time for your self right? So I decided next summer will be different and I am gonna make sure that I will not daydream anymore.

would it be so bad to wish that I am at that photo right at this very moment ?

Stay away

If you want a happy life, surround your self with happy people :) Have a happy weekend everyone!

Lot update and Kitchen inspiration

Next month would be our last check payment for the zero interest down payment of our lot. July will be the start of our monthly mortgage which means we will be paying a bit higher than the monthly down payment. That means we need extra income to cover that amount. :) I don't want to be negative and stress myself of the need because I know we will get by and sooner our dream house will become reality. Slowly and in perfect timing.

Rather than stressing, I choose to inspire my self with lots and lots of house and home designs in the internet, taking notes (though mentally for now) of the designs I want for my own house. Soon, I'll be printing and making mood boars of my kitchen, my living room, my bedroom and the patio.

Here are the few  kitchen designs I've seen and liked. I figure we will not be needing a big kitchen thus am only looking for small kitchen designs with a square dining table like this one;

image source : www.home-designing.com

I so heart this one below because it has plenty of storage. 

image source : http://sweptinc.com

And finally, I think I will have this one someday, dining table with bench. I want exactly the same color.

image source : http://sweptinc.com/dining-room-tables-with-benches/

And if I get tired of the wood color, I can just put linens and choose the color I want, I am sure it won't be hard to Find square tablecloth that suits my mood :)

image source : http://mofur.blogspot.com/2015/03/small-kitchen-table-ideas.html

Sigh. I can't wait to have my own kitchen :) and cook my favorite dishes.

GRATITUDE

image from  instagram

so true.

New Earpiece for Mom

My mom is happy because my sisters got her a new hearing aid. A mother's day gift for her. She has been having suffering for hearing loss since the accident and she just can't believe how loud and clear she can hear now. She just need to use it too often so she can get used to it. I think she's not comfortable with the feeling that there is something plug into your ear at all times.

And I understand her very because I myself is not fond of earpiece or headphones too. I easily get irritated with it and the longest I can have those in my ears are 5 to 10 minutes maximum.

The exact opposite of my husband,   he owns 3 or four headphones.Yes, he has headphone extension cable too. I often chide him about it asking how many ears does he have ba to own such :) but he will just smile.

When we travel and he's not in the driver's seat, he always have that, when we're home and he is in front of his laptop working on something he always have that plugged in his ears. I think his being a musician has something do do with it. I remember one Christmas, our gift for our eldest nephews are all headphones :)

Anyways, I am happy for  Mom, I just hope she wear it often. It must be hard not being able to hear clearly.

Happy Mother's Day!!

Happy Mother's day to all the Mommies out there!

Special greetings goes to Sandee. You're like a mom in the blogosphere :) and to Abelle- you are such a strong woman, being mom and dad at the same time for your 2 wonderful kids!

To all the great N@wie Mommies :)

To  my two sisters. Ate Weng & Ate Rina - you both are such a trooper..hahaha!! ang babait ng mga anak ninyo!!

and lastly to my one and only Nanay- I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!