Once again

My sister in law who got married (to my husband's younger brother) last November 30 is already expecting! Yes, you read it right, got married 3 months  ago and is now pregnant.  Oh you can read it with a sarcastic tone just like the way I wrote it because really..2 months or so after the wedding? And us 5 years and 11 months?? and still no baby news to tell and shout and jump about.

Oh yes, I'm sulking once again and I cried once again and I asked once again- Why not me??? You can scold me for that and I won't get mad because that is how I am really feeling right now. After all I am entitled to my own feeling.

Of course I am happy and excited for them, excited for the newest addition to the family ( I love this couple and they are very close to us and for sure I will love the baby also) my sulking has nothing to do with them having a baby, not at all,  it is about me waiting for the longest time.

And once again, I am preparing myself to the endless comments from people around us "oh you'll be next"- I just hope it is true and we will be next (as in tomorrow or next week or next month) and though I don't want to get hurt by those positive comments somehow it affects me pa rin eh. Sigh

Here we go again

My very good friend Carmel & Andrew recently became instant parents, she said she's scared but excited and I felt the same way. The beautiful baby is now with them and just like every new baby in our group, everyone adores her. My exact word if I remember it right was this " If you will love her as your own, then we will love her as our own too" just like everyone else.

And while we our genuinely excited and happy with the new baby ( as a matter of fact I can't wait to go to a mall's baby section this weekend and buy her some girly pink stuff)

I was caught off guard by other people's side comment about having a baby or adopting a baby and honestly I was surprised to feel the same old feeling of resentment.

It's like when friends started getting married and I was still single, people would ask "When are you next?"

and then eventually I got married....friends started having babies and there they are again..the questions seems endless..why are you still childless??, when will you have your baby? "you're next soon" blah..blah..blah..not knowing that it is such a very sensitive topic and that we have feelings and that we are hurt by the many unsolicited comments and advice..

and now..I find it very ridiculous and weird that some people would ask me or tell me straight to my face "you know, you should adopt too" "when are you adopting?" My gosh..(gusto ko himatayin)

Please..we have a life and even if we do not have a child, it doesn't mean we're not happy. I hope people stop commenting about us not having our own kid yet. I wish they could all read this blog of mine and realize that they should just keep their mouth shut about that topic.

Please lang :)

Electricity Bill

Our bill for this month just came today and I can't believe when I saw how much. I think it was an all time high for us. I just do not understand why it is much higher than last month when we have my 2 nephews at home? I asked the husband to checked  of our usage but I so agree that we didn't add something that would cause the bill to shoot up. In fact I was even expecting a much lower bill because we've lessen the usage since my nephews went back home already. And I know that even if I look at that bill for the whole day, it will not change. I just have to accept the truth that we will be paying that amount that is as high as diamonds can be. That's an exaggeration of course.

Now, I've told husband to carefully watch everything we use. Since the bill date started anew, we will observed if it would go lower next month.

For the meantime, we will be cutting back on our DVD marathons, the PC usage, and whatever that is not necessary.

I need to be rich

That is my current state of mind as of this moment and you read it right ”I need to be rich” not I want to be rich.

Just so I can give to whoever asks for money, just so I will not feel guilty if I don’t have anything to give especially to family members. Just so I can give my parents anything they want and anytime they want it.

Just so I don’t feel this feeling when I want to give but I don’t have any.

Just so I won’t feel bad if someone who owes me money do not pay at all.

Just so I can go wherever I want anytime I want it. Like go to orlando vacations with dear hubby right now. Like when I am feeling blue, I will not have to force my self to stay in the office even if I don’t feel right. Yeah just like NOW.

Where is my STARBUCKS PLANNER?

Until now, I still have that card full of red cups stickers. Where is the planner? baka naman December na di ko pa makuha planner ko? first time ko pa naman. tsk..tsk..

waahhhhhh!!!!

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BAKIT AFTER THREE DAYS?????????????

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WELL....

I'VE LEARNED MY LESSON...THE HARD WAY.