Dinner

This was our dinner last night :) 

Salted eggs with tomatoes

Dried Pusit ( squid)

Dilis (small dried fish) with tomatoes

with cucumber on the side!

You bet I ate more than what I should!! Sarap eh :)

Hcg diet

Have you heard of hcg? I’ve actually read about it from several blog posts but never did an actual research about it until now. Here’s what I found out and I do hope this would be of help to those who are looking for information about this.

HCG stands for Human Chorionic Gonadotropin, it is a natural hormone produce by placenta during pregnancy. How does it work? It has something to do with metabolism, it can be taken orally under the tongue for the rapid absorption of the body, they say it triggers the body to provide a steady flow of "food" received from the fat that your body is breaking down and using. You can also have the injectable one which you inject everyday. Ouch! I don’t think I can do that.

And of course they say it is the quickest way to lose weight, from 1 to 2 pounds a day, now who wouldn’t want that? I guess I cans ay it’s instant weigh loss! But like any diet or weigh loss pills you still have to read facts, read testimonies, research and consult your physician before taking it.

You can actually buy hcg online, so it is not hard to find it, even if it is not available in your country. A lot of online store is selling it and some even offer money back guarantee. The price of the injectable is a bit expensive but I think the oral drop is fair enough.

I think the best advertisement about hcg diet is that they are saying that you will lose weight without really dieting and without exercising. Busy people will love that, this is perfect to those who don’t have time to hit the gym.

I say again, the information about hcg is all over the internet, I therefore suggest read and read and consult you physician before trying especially to women who are trying to conceive like me.

Rachel's Barbie dolls

She has few doll houses too. And I think what's in the picture is what's left of her dolls because although she loves barbie and she loves playing with it like a typical child she end up removing all the body parts of the doll. She also had a barbie party on her 7th birthday. She's turning 9 next year and I know soon she'll get over the doll thing, I just hope she will still love girly stuff because I love to give her girly stuff. Being the first niece in the family somehow made her special to everyone of us. This coming Christmas I still don't have a gift for her but for sure it will not be some kind of muscle builders. if ever, that's for my eldest nephew who is a tweener now.

I still think I would give her another doll this year so she'll have one more to enjoy before she turn another year older.

Will I ever be a MOM?

Honestly, if you ask me right now - my hope of bearing a child is getting slimmer everyday and everyday and I feel like blaming my self, a lot of ifs  kept running in my thoughts.

"if only I got married at an earlier age
if only I had myself regularly checked up by an OB ever since I started missing my monthly period,
if only I am not fat
if only I have money, 
if only I have taken good care of my self..."

Five more months and we're turning FIVE. And I am turning 38 next year. Sometimes I say, it's okay if I'll not be given the chance to become a mother but inside, it is still painful. It is still painful to know that you'll never experience the joy of motherhood, the joy of breastfeeding, the joy of being everything to someone, the joy of seeing your child smile for the first time.

And you know, even if I don't like it, when I look at my friends pictures and see their beautiful kids, I still cry not because I am not happy for them, it's just that the pain is overwhelming and I can't help it.

But I guess I will not dwell with the pain forever, I have to overcome it at some point. I have to accept it one day and begin living a life to the fullest despite not having a child. I know I will someday. After all I maybe not the only married woman in the world without a kid. And adoption is always an option to me.

And I know I will find joy in knowing that my husband's love will not be affected whether we conceived or not and that he will always be there for me, and that the two of us can grow old together. I know I can hold on to the vows he made even if I we are already old and all wrinkly (which reminds me of the eye wrinkle cream I so needed)

I am sure he will still hold my hand and we will still praise God together.

Meeting Friends

I am excited for this weekend not only because it is a long weekend but because I'm meeting (old but good and true) friends of mine. And I don't care if I have to travel 4 hours on Friday night, I am sure all the hassle will worth it. After all I only get to see these friends once a year and it's an exclusive girl night out, well not actually night out but a sleep over unless we go opt to go out for a coffee.

This year it's even more special and exciting because one of them is announcing something which we all do not know yet, that gives us all the more excitement. It will be sleepless night, imagine 6 ladies chatting endlessly. And I know wrinkle creams and all other beauty stuff will be part of the chat.  I am so looking forward to this. Thank God it's happening this Friday night!!

 that was lat year's photo..this year we will be complete!! so happy!!

Moving again

I am readying my self for another big change happening to us next year as we are schedule to leave the current apartment we are renting and move on to wherever we can find a nice but cheaper place. And I say again that CHANGE IS INEVITABLE. I am sure gonna miss this house. Although the surroundings can be noisy at times, like last night when the neighbor partied all night long with loud karaoke machine playing till I guess 2 AM.

But apart from incidents like that, I have learn to love this place, it's very near from my office, from my favorite supermarket and from our church. Plus, it's safe.

But as I have said, change is expected and we are embracing that come February next year. My only prayer is that we could find a place that is quiet and safe but will not cost me my whole month salary. God bless us in our search for our next community.

Cyber Monday deals

I guess everyone in the United States of America is ready for the Black Friday Sale and to us who do not have such deals, well we do not have to be so sad because Cyber Monday deals from buy.com and maybe from other online stores are here and they offer good deals too.

Bad timing though for me because I just withdrew from paypal. I guess shopping for Christmas will have to wait till the end of this month for me. I feel bad that I have to cost cut this time, my gifts will be limited to nieces and nephews only and to some real close friends. And even with that I still have to look for not so expensive gifts, that's why I am on the look out for sale and good deals.

My Christmas wish list

For my friends and my family who do not have any idea what to give me this Christmas, here’s my wish list. And I know I am not that materialistic and your love is more than enough but isn’t it nice to have gifts you can open on Christmas eve?

1. Accessories (necklace, earrings, bangles)
2. Starbucks planner (though I know I’ll be getting my self one, thanks for the stickers!)
3. digital frame ( but will also love to receive ordinary photo frames)
4. Books (inspirational / devotional)
5. Trip to Beauty Salon
6. Spa or whole body massage
7. Laptop
8. Trip to Singapore
9. House and Lot
10. A new job

I know the last three are pure wishes but just in case you can give it tome. I’ll be more than happy!!

Black Friday Deals

I’ve been looking on great Black Friday deals over the internet since this morning (and I am drooling) I know we are all screaming because it isn’t happening here. There are really good bargains!! How I wish I live in the US and that I have a good job there of course.
Black Friday would probably the only time I’ll buy stuff for my house. You can even buy dvd’s for $1 dollar!!

And because the frugal in me is itching, I asked a friend to look for an Ipod and buy me one if he can see a good deal. I’m hoping to give that to hubby this Christmas.

I also search online here but still it is cheaper If I can buy from that sale.

Wish. Wish. Wish.

I AM LOVED

I do not know what’s wrong with me lately though I blame the hormones and the stress at work because I’ve been snapping a lot and I am being too emotional most of the time. Still, I am thankful that my husband understands me and is very patient with me. A lot of time he’s on the receiving line of all the rages and emotions I have. And always, he’ll just be there for me, listening and doing what he can to ease whatever is in me.

Today is no exceptional, I was tired to the highest level and he knows that I cried while I was at the office, when he came to pick me up he said “you want red cup?” ….he knows how to cheer me up and I love him to bits.

And thank God I also have the hormones to blame and if not that I’m sure I’ll be able to find something else to blame..hehe! Probably the weather, the economy, the traffic or the ephedrine diet pills (If I’m into it).

But seriously, I am really thankful for my husband. How he puts up with me with all the tantrums I am giving him, he’s one of a kind. I AM LOVED.

RED CUP

Something that really cheers me up...

What to do with oily skin

I do have an oily skin, my face would be shining in the middle of the day and when I am in the office and working I just can’t wash it. Thank God someone gifted me last Christmas with oil blotting paper and I so love it! It works best for someone who is busy all day. When I look at the mirror and saw my face shimmering (with oil) I just pull one or two of that paper form my drawer. So if you do not want oily skin treatments that are expensive you can opt for different ways. Wash your face every so often if you can or use the oil blotting paper.

Free shipping at buy.com

To online shoppers out there -It's FREE SHIPPING at buy.com with their great deals! and I know it's what online shoppers want. Shipping cost can sometime cost an arm and leg and most of the time can be the main reason why people think twice of buying online.But if it's free shipping plus a great deal-who can resist it?

Although it is not buying time yet for us I enjoyed browsing at their items. I wish I could buy right away the 22" LCD Monitor because our monitor is already dying but I have to just wait and see if I can buy it come December.

Christmas-Out of the country?

There is a possibility that the husband and I will be spending Christmas and New Year out of the country and to say that I am excited is an understatement. Although things are not finalized yet and we are still negotiating and praying for it. If ever, it will be an all expenses paid trip plus we'll earn well not a big amount of money but at least to be able to go in an out of the country trip without having to shell out money is a major major treat for us!

I am imagining myself having Christmas dinner with the husband in a place where culture and tradition abounds. Where there are temples instead steel building that we so commonly see everyday.

I really really wish for this one to happen. Keeping my fingers crossed in prayer :)

Hello everyone!

Wow...No post for 8 days? I guess this is one of the longest time that I didn't posted. Not that I do not have anything to write or share but mainly because I do not have the strength- I've been poorly sick due to severe ear infection this last week and when I get home from the office, (yes, even if I'm sick I still need to go to work and that sucks even more) all I want to do is just rest.

Now that I'm feeling a LOT BETTER I'll try to be active online again.

I hope the ear infection will not bother me again. I hate being sick.

FInally got to sleep!

We're back from the province. What a great vacation it was..so great that I spent almost two days sleeping. My mom was actually amazed on how long I could sleep. It's like I will wake up and eat then will sleep again..Of course she didn't know that here in Manila, sleep is rare for me.

We didn't even had the chance to visit my grandparents and some relatives tombs at the cemetery. I don't feel bad about it though because I went home to see my parents..to visit the living and not the dead.

But at the same time, I wish I had time to chat with former classmates, old friends and see what's going on with their lives. Well, at least I was able to catch and compensate for the many sleeping hours I missed due to work overload.

Welcome back to me!